Growing Up?
I realize that recently I have been thinking-considering-arguing a LOT about things in my heads, that I surprise myself. Where is that simplistic person who thinks about herself more than anything/one else most of the time? (you might have known this by now, there is a reason behind all those blogposts with first person perspective *wink*)
I have been thinking about collars. One little detail in clothes that plays a major role in setting the tone of a top. Peterpan gets me into thinking ‘preppy and Audrey Tautou’, cape is ‘autumn/winter wear 2011’, Bertha is ‘Victorian’, and Gladstone is ‘detective - think Sherlock’. I read about Martha Ward last night, her London Fashion Week diary. And my apology for being so fashionably late (literally!) but her jeweled collars are divine! Wow I should start doing DIY collars! I contemplated to post the link here. *voice in the head* “Just because she is now self-educating herself in fashion, of course she HAS TO post that up.” “It is too fascinating not to share!” “Pretty things are always worth sharing!”
Where’s the big stuffs? Did you not say ‘thinking’? Yeah, do not worry, getting there! Yesterday was a thinking-till-your-forehead-multiplies moment, when I was made to re-question one of the most fundamental, and also eternally mysterious, concept in life: GOD. From small pinch like: “How could the Japanese be so resilient in facing their big aftermath loss?” which resulted in an argument, coming from a lawyer/pastor, that it is the Buddhism value of ‘detachment’ that has impacted Jap’s way of seeing things. Statements and questions after were not any simpler. It was very enticing, nonetheless. He explained sin and hell in a way I have never thought about before. “Leave me alone, God” and God’s opposite’s (feel free to name it whatever suits you) answer: “Yes, come to me instead. I can grant your any wish”. It got me into thinking, it is this kind of people, rather than those indoctrinating the followers, that we need more.
Back to the small stuff! (being an egocentric that I am), I got quite a few comments on my outfit. A combination of light blue cotton jeans boyfriend shirt and stockings. Some said it was too suggestive, in a very playful and jokey way. That I really enjoyed hearing. Some others said the same thing, sarcastically. Questioning whether or not I have pants inside. Ah, interesting! Same things, different tones, different effects, yeah? Been there? Well I am secretly happy inside, who does not like attention? ;) #confessionofanattentionseeker
Does having more thoughts mean I am growing up? I dont know. Fill me in here, please!
Anyway, here’s the Martha Ward’s link:
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